Wandering Words from a Rambling Hand

Pillows on the bed

2009-11-23T19:49:00.000-08:00

Claudia just posing, we're goofing off, killing time.
I apologize about being behind on my blog, but I promise you guys, I have something big brewing!

picking kitchen colors

2009-07-13T13:52:00.000-07:00

Sweet red wine

2009-07-08T21:08:00.000-07:00

She walks from temptation

2009-07-04T13:56:00.000-07:00

touching her face, sculpting her lines, building her features.

2009-06-23T18:45:00.000-07:00

Highway

2009-06-23T00:04:00.000-07:00

Her eyes stopped my feet.

2009-06-20T22:21:00.000-07:00

"Heart-Shaped Glasses (When The Heart Guides The Hand)"

She reminds me of the one in school
When I was cuttin'
She was dressed in white
And I couldn't take my eyes off her
But that's not what I took off that night

She'll never cover up what we did with her dress, no
She said kiss me
It'll heal
But it won't forget
Kiss me
It'll heal
But it won't forget

And I don't mind you keepin' me
On pins and needles
If I could stick to you
And you stick me too

Don't break
Don't break my heart
And I won't break your heart-shaped glasses
Little girl, little girl
You should close your eyes
That blue is getting me high

Don't break
Don't break my heart
And I won't break your heart-shaped glasses
Little girl, little girl
You should close your eyes
That blue is getting me high
And making me low
That blue is getting me high
And making me low

She reminds me of a one I knew
That cut up the negatives of my life
I couldn't take my hands off her
She wouldn't let me be anywhere but inside

And I don't mind you keepin' me
On pins and needles
If I could stick to you
And you stick me too

Just don't break
Don't break my heart
And I won't break your heart-shaped glasses
Little girl, little girl
You should close your eyes
That blue is getting me high

Don't break
Don't break my heart
And I won't break your heart-shaped glasses
Little girl, little girl
You should close your eyes
That blue is getting me high
And making me low

She'll never cover up what we did with her dress, no
She said kiss me
It'll heal
But it won't forget
Kiss me
It'll heal
But it won't forget

I don't mind you keepin' me
On pins and needles
If I could stick to you
And you stick me too

Don't break
Don't break my heart
And I won't break your heart-shaped glasses
Little girl, little girl
You should close your eyes
That blue is getting me high

Don't break
Don't break my heart
And I won't break your heart-shaped glasses
Little girl, little girl
You should close your eyes
That blue is getting me high
And making me low

By: Marilyn Manson

Self portrait

2009-06-10T21:37:00.000-07:00

Outtake of a fashion shoot

2009-05-20T22:22:00.001-07:00

Old school passion

2009-04-15T19:48:00.000-07:00

pulses of life

2009-04-14T20:35:00.000-07:00

Memories of an ex

2009-03-26T22:26:00.000-07:00

the wind cries through the grass

2009-03-05T21:18:00.000-08:00

counting flowers on the wall

2009-03-02T22:39:00.000-08:00

to breath deep and smell the toxins

2009-02-16T23:13:00.000-08:00

breathlessly I await you

2009-02-13T09:53:00.000-08:00

a phone call cost a nickel

2009-02-11T22:24:00.000-08:00

Flowers on my grave

2009-02-10T13:59:00.000-08:00

Trash dolls

2009-02-04T13:59:00.000-08:00

My Favorite Assasin

2009-02-03T00:17:00.000-08:00

Hilary Clinton mask

2009-01-31T20:36:00.000-08:00

a quick nosh

2009-01-30T12:20:00.000-08:00

shades of purple

2009-01-29T20:53:00.000-08:00

I see, I speak, I am ignored

2009-01-27T22:21:00.001-08:00

the wind cuts through like a knife

2009-01-26T22:21:00.000-08:00

The devil knocks twice.

2009-01-20T23:26:00.000-08:00

and the sun set over the trees.

2009-01-19T22:16:00.000-08:00

Please excuse me while I kiss the sky

2009-01-15T19:27:00.001-08:00

b-52s roaring along the skyline

2009-01-14T22:54:00.000-08:00

Oranges 10 for $4

2009-01-14T18:38:00.000-08:00

Apples 2 for $1

2009-01-12T20:49:00.000-08:00

Chess night

2009-01-08T23:45:00.000-08:00

Si je suis mort aujourd'hui, mon amour durerait à jamais

2009-01-07T21:55:00.000-08:00

erotische Herrschaft

2008-12-10T22:37:00.000-08:00

reizvolle Geister

2008-12-09T21:55:00.000-08:00

Loneliness

2008-12-08T07:25:00.000-08:00

Feeling so much inside
But what it is, I don't know

The emotions are overwhelming
Crying became tear-less
It's getting harder to express what is inside

I wanted to tell somebody
But nobody understood
because I too, do not understand.

If only I could write my heart out
and let my emotions out...
If only I could cry my heart out
and let my tears flow...
If only I could have someone
to hug me and tell me it is alright...

If only.

Image titled: 15,000 white doves filled the skies.
Model: Kira Nova
Photographer: Lazyi Photography
Location: House of Nightmares, Columbus Ohio.

Trip home

2008-11-22T18:59:00.001-08:00

Eidolon

2008-11-19T18:42:00.000-08:00

Panting, Pulsing, Puffing

2008-11-18T22:23:00.000-08:00

Enten auf dem Teich

2008-11-18T06:53:00.001-08:00

Tripped out concert.: Sex Slaves

2008-11-06T16:49:00.000-08:00

Sex Slaves Concert

2008-11-05T09:48:00.000-08:00

blurred smoke

2008-10-20T20:27:00.000-07:00

Cleveland sky

2008-10-19T18:25:00.001-07:00

So Laura, my sister and myself were wandering through Cleveland the other day and these were some of the sights I saw.

View from the driver seat

2008-10-08T20:03:00.000-07:00

So, I'm bored, looking for something fun and challenging. So I have set myself a challenge. To drive around at night and photograph 10 pictures from my driver seat and kep them interesting. Let me know if I did it right.

Masks!

2008-10-08T09:54:00.000-07:00

Check out the latest from my mask series.

Pudding time

2008-09-25T20:41:00.000-07:00

This is fashion model Spell; the images are from my messy headshots series.

Turn back now! This is dark and scary!

2008-08-14T09:08:00.000-07:00

So, lately, I've been working on some dark, sad poetry. Here it is, please read it, but don't be worried about me, this is my therapy.

Note; side A
The weight takes away my breath,
crushing my very existence,
destroying my fragile soul.
I stumble through the darkness,
groping for reality,
praying for redemption.
I struggle to face the world each day,
fearing people,
avoiding life.
I stand alone in the choking black,
screaming,
pleading.

Questions in the Void
Can you hear the screaming in my head?
Can you see the tears in my heart?
How hard have you listened?
How long have you looked?
Can you feel the pain of my emotions?
Can you see the void in my soul?
How much have you cared?
How serious is our love?

Note: Side b
I lay awake at night,
Dreaming of the moment,
I can lay next to you.
I long for your touch,
remembering the moments together,
I long for those times again.
I know I pushed you away,
when I needed you the most,
I can't bear to think of it.
I hate myself for the thoughts I have,
Late at night, alone in my room,
I confront my demons with each passing of dusk.

Untitled: some random one liners.
I pray no one hears me screaming.
I know no one hears me crying.
I fear someone knowing I care.

Making models wet...

2008-06-13T10:47:00.000-07:00

SO, lately I have had a fascination with getting models wet.
I think there is something erotic and sensual about water and a woman. It might be the taboo of privacy associated with a shower, it might be the feeling of the purity of the water with a sexual overtone, whatever the reason, I enjoy the carnality of these images.

This image is Missy Vinyl, this image makes me think of someone washing away their sins. I have titled in "Cleanse".

This image is also of Missy Vinyl, I love the ghost effect it creates. I have titled this piece "Sheer passion".

This is model Missy Kohut, I love her willingness to try new things. This piece is titled "Salacious".

This is Model Alkemie, she is my long distance muse. This piece is titled " Amatory".

This is model Melissa, she came to me off my website, because she loved my work. This piece is called "bde-chen".

I'm slacking

2008-03-12T22:03:00.001-07:00

I know I'm slacking on here, but I have pictures to edit, pictures to take, and did I mention pictures to edit.

Here are some teasers from my shoot with the amazing Amaya Solace, she stopped over on the tail end of a trip, so it worked out good for me.

Taboo

2008-02-24T00:15:00.000-08:00

Why is smoking so taboo these days?Just 30yrs ago it was common place, 30yrs before that is was sexy, classy and attractive, 30yrs before that, it was advertised as healthy. But now, smokers are cast aside, viewed as rejects of society. Shunned outside in the cold... but wait, when they need to raise some tax money, or just want more tax money, who do they turn to first. Thats right the dirty filthy smokers. so, we're shunned until they need money.
Well, I for one, smoke and am proud. Am I an addict? Yes, I need my nicotine, somedays I need it more than food. Do I wan to quit? Nope, like I said, I'm a smoker and proud. Do I know it is bad for me? Duh! But a better question to ask me is do I care? Because I don't, I just enjoy it for now.

Here are some sexy smoking pictures.

So much to do, so little time

2008-02-19T20:51:00.000-08:00

Why can't there be 48 hours in a day? I am swamped in editing, it feels like a mountain, I might never climb out of. So, I come home from work everyday and sit in front of my computer, editing, IMing, emailing, doing everything I can to keep up, but it just never seems to stop. I feel overwhelmed some days, but at the same time I ask myself, would I rather be busy and know people want to work with me, or would I rather struggle to get a shoot, hoping I can find a person or two to work with me.

Here are some piuctures from my recent shoot with Orsolya, she was alor of fun. Kept the shoot light, we laughed and enjoyed it. She approached me about shooting, I don't know if she will continue to work with me or if she will work with others, but I know this shoot went very well.

Feeling in a rut and then dug out!

2008-02-14T14:38:00.000-08:00

So, I was feeling uninspired recently. Feeling like whatever I do is cliche, weak and just kind of boring. I would dread going to photoshoots, I would dread editing the pictures and I just felt like I was wasting time going nowhere, just taking the same type of picture over and over, with nothing creative, nothing original and no spark. I couldn't figure out what to do, I several times thought of setting down my camera, no time limit, just taking a break.

But then my eyes opened up, I started looking at the world in a new light. I stressed to get a picture of that world. With the vivid colors, the deep emotion, the painstaking story behind each image. Hence the project Hotel Gothic was born. I think it is a blending of my style, with a new edge to it.

Hiatus or Quit?

2007-11-22T23:15:00.000-08:00

I'm confused.

I'm putting down my camera, I'm just not sure for how long...

After December 8th, I will be finishing out all of my commitments for the yr, then I'll be on a professional hiatus, not entirely sure when I will pick up my camera, if ever. I'm feeling like I am simply playing with a camera lately, not truly creating anything worth looking at. Certinly not creating anything I can make a serious living at.

This image is of the amazing Angela, AKA Gumby. She is a model of truly unknown potential. She can hold damn near any pose, she enjoys having fun in front of the camera and is always interested in what you are doing because she is an aspiring photographer.

About Time Lazy Ass

2007-11-21T21:49:00.000-08:00

Yeah it has been awhile since I've posted hasn't it. I'm sure some of you reading figured I gave up on this, I'm sure some were glad I quit posting stuff up here, but alas I'm still around. I've just been crazy busy lately.

So I went to Exotica 2 in Detroit, where I got to play around with club shooting, which let me tell you is quite fun. I didn't care about trying to capture a perfectly lit picture so much as I tried to catch the mood and feeling of the club, of the event and the energy in the air. I loved using the clubs lights for mood, and I think I might have done a decnt job at it.

Besides meeting alot of cool people, I got to toy with my own desires in fetish. GASP! I know, who would have thought I might enjoy this stuff, I know, I know, I think I'm the only one who was honestly surprised, but I was. I am excited to possibly explore more of this fun as time goes on.

Another poem.

2007-08-29T14:15:00.000-07:00

Alone I sit, all by myself.

Surrounded by people, but alone I sit.

My thoughts stay within my head.

No words cross my lips.

Calls for my attention go unanswered.

Alone I am, despite the hustle of people.

Loneliness,

Despair,

Fear.

People are all around me,

Bumping,

Pushing,

Talking.

But still I feel alone,

even in a crowded room.

A touch of poetry.

2007-08-05T23:29:00.000-07:00

Here is one of my poems, it has won several awards, it was one of the ones used by the selection committee to name me "Young Poet of the year" in 1997. I think these pictures of Raelyn go nicely with the poem and also kind of answer where I get my image ideas sometimes.

I hope you all enjoy it, I know I do.

Sea of Madness

Hard, cold fingers caress my back,
pushing my mind to the edge of the sea...
the sea of madness...
Warm, sticky blood tickles my face,
pushing my thoughts to the edge of the sea...
the sea of madness...
Burning, singeing heat warms my insides,
pushing my sanity to the edge of the sea...
the sea of madness...
Bright, white light stings my eyes,
pushing my memories to the edge of the sea...
the sea of madness...
Deep, forceful pain injures my soul,
pushing my very existence to the edge of the sea...
the sea of madness...

Me Fashion?

2007-08-04T23:07:00.000-07:00

So lately people have been asking me to do more fashion style work. I usually meet these requests with my head turned to the side and one eyebrow raised... I mean, I have an understanding ofphotography, some even tell me I'm decent and a few even tell me I'm good(but I think they are just trying to pump up my ego).

So, I find myself, with the push from models and friends to do some "fashion" style work on occasion. After talking with the beautiful model Maria again today, I kind of rekindled my interest in doing something fashion wise. It might be because she only has interests in that or it may be because she was such a blast to work with, I honestly have no clue.

I'm including a picture collage of Maria I did awhile back, to show how I like to shoot "fashion".

I love this picture

2007-07-09T01:03:00.000-07:00

I really have nothing to say, but I just wanted to post this picture of Diana. She was a hoot during our shoot, she came in all bubbly and had me wondering why she chose me to work with. Then we explored her dark side and I found some inner dark within that bubbly little girl.

So, I haven't been doing much shooting, so I revisited this set and like this new edit even better.

We've only just begun

2007-07-03T19:41:00.000-07:00

I just got back from the movie "1408". Here is my review of this awesome piece of cinematic mastery.

I will not give up too much of this movie's plot, only rave about why I love it.

I like the fact that this is inline with Stephen King's good movies and short stories, not like the recent crap he has been releasing. Every detail of this movie helped to build the feeling of dread. The set work was amazing, the make-up was wickedly good, I only found 1 error(which is amazing for the amount of change there was).

This movie is going to become a classic horror film, not like the gore filled crap that has been coming out. Yes I know, I do horror and gore make-up/photography, but sometimes movies make up for a lack of a good story by popping out an eye ball(*cough* hostel *cough*), but this movie was based upon a solid story.

I'm going to advise everyone to go see this movie!

The first picture I decided to post, was with the amazing Angel Dust, we built a piece directly onto her back. The second picture is with Tygrim(Ryan), where we decided to just play with some of my barbed wire and blood. I love the way this came out.

I'm not sure the public is ready for this.

2007-07-03T14:54:00.000-07:00

So here goes. I am going to venture into the word of blogging. In my blog I guess you can expect to find a picture(once in awhile), you'll learn things about me that I'm almost positive you don't want to know, probably will be some of my poetry as I am getting back into writing(long hiatus to find my heart).

As you read through here, you need to know my rules... my blog, I make up the rules, if I feel like leaving in spelling errors I will, if I feel like writing a HUGE blog on my love of grated cheeese I so will. See I kind of like this.

The picture here is from my first shoot with Alexis. She is an art school modeland student, who wanted to venture out and do some darker stuff, you'll definately be seeing more of her here.

So now we are off to embark on this journey together please feel free to join my and watch as this scarey saga unfolds.